makan makan dan makan lagi

Cuti Sekolah sangat sinonim dengan Majlis Akad Nikah.
engkau cikgu ke, engineer ke, doktor ke...
semua bakal pengantin akan memilih cuti sekolah sebagai tarikh keramat mereka. aku jugak yang pening kepala. tatau nak attend majlis sape dulu.

6/6 = Anis (my hommie, Sg Petani), Marina & Ishak (kawan keje, Penang), Ismie Zaffrey & Aida (sedara & fren, Kg Guring Perlis)
7/6 = Nanie (kawan smkap, Kg Sanglang), Cat (IPBA, Kedah), Aida (IPBA, Gerik)
8/6 = Engagement Elia (Childhood friend, Kg Behor Lateh)
13/6 = Aji (TC, Bangi), Ishak & Marina (tengok atas, Pendang)

hatoi!! cuba bagi idea camne aku nak g semua tempat di atas nie?


last weeked attend wedding Makngah di Simpang Pelangai, Pahang. Tema hitam putih. sangat menarik.

semalam attend akad nikah Ismie and Aida. last2 minute Tuan call ajak teman die. haish!

photography utk wedding masih lagi tak mahir. especially waktu malam. masih lagi bergegar. haish! nasib korang la menjadi victims obsession aku nie.

Big Black Butterfly...

this morning,

aku dah dapat tau kenapa ade big black butterfly in my heart.

bangun pagi dengan rasa sgt happy dan teruja. esok last day sekolah.

7.30am..
panaskan Mr Jesse..

"Yuni! mai keluaq sat. Mai tngok nie"
"Apa dia?"

*air mata mula bergenang...*

"semalam takdak lagi kan?"
"takdak" *muka cuak wawa here*
"mesti kerja budak2"

*air mata dah menitis melihat Mr Jesse*

masuk dlm kete..
air mata merembes keluar..
smpai hati depa wat Mr Jesse mcm nie...
benda yang paling aku sayang...
aku tak buat salah apa pun...
nak ckp keje budak sekolah, tak mungkin sbb aku tak pernah pun marah budak tanpa sebab. kalau aku marah pun, aku akan rationalizedkan balik kenapa aku marah diorg.
Mr Jesse tak wat salah apa pun...
kenapa Mr Jesse...
pergi la conteng umah aku ke.
meja aku.
curi duit aku ke..
aku tak kesah..
nape korang lukakan Mr Jesse???

Calarkan Mr Jesse, rasa sgt sakit. mcm korang lukakan org yang aku sayang, yang aku jaga , yang aku tatang. in the end, korang wat aku rasa tak layak untuk menjaga org tu. aku failed utk jaga orang tu sbb korang berjaya menembusi benteng yang aku bina di sekeliling dia.

"abah, Mr Jesse kena calar. along sedih sgt"
"laaa...dalam ka? budak2 kot buat?"
"tatau, along rasa budak naik gerek lalu sebelah tuh, tapi mcm tak logik gak sbb along letak rapat dgn keta wawa. tapi dia tak kena sket pun"
"budak la saja2 calar"
"along mana ada pernah marah budak, mana pernah tibai budak, lagipun la nie exam week. budak2 kalau kena marah dia akan buat la la tu juga. along mana marah budak time exam nie"
"along rasa budak2 naik gerek, sbb rendah ja"
"takpa la. nak wat camna. takyah la dok keriau sgt. tu la risiko kalau nak ada kereta, kena la hadapi"

terus kata-kata abah menusuk dalam hati kecil ini...

Kalau kita terlalu menyayangi sesuatu..
kita terdedah kepada risiko..and kita kena berani hadapinya..
kenapa aku lupa tentang tu?

A happy day... Not really...

my day began quite so-so.
i went to school.
masuk kelas jaga budak exam.
did some photog while my kids tengah drawing.
mafia-mafia-mafia-barn-barn-farm-farm. haish! tersangkut dgn game balik.

"yunee tngok nie" sambil menunjuk beg Guess purple yang masih berbau metrojaya.
"lah..cashier tuh tak buang ka natang nie? kuar semalam tak bunyi plak"
"tak la, akseseries tambahan nie. jom p island balik sekolah"

krriiiing~~

"jom balik! hampa takyah wat keja teruk2, gaji sama ja"

nie perbualan tepon plak

"Assalamualaikum Cik Lah"
"Waalaikummusalam, hah! camna? jadik ambik tak?"
"Nak lah!"
"Nak jumpa bila? saya nak p Komtar nie"
"haa...elok la. saya pun kat luaq nie"
"Amboi..ada duit dah ka? hahaha"
"duit ada laaa..dari minggu lepas dah prepare nie"
"kita jumpa kat maybank komtar"

bla bla bla~

Kat Komtar dah

"Cindy, flash ngan beg yg harituh mana?"
"Ada2. Canon 430EX II and Lowepro kan"
*muka gayat aku di sini"
"Cik Lah! lupa nak habaq, dalam lens yuni tu kan, yuni nampak menatang. dia mcm kutu. dok jalan2 dekat lens tuh"
"hahahahah! hg nie, menatang apa? bewak? ulaq?"
"laaa...yuni habaq betui nie"
"haaa...suruh dia tngok"

bla bla bla~

"Cindy, meh lens EF 50mm f/1.8 II"
*muka gayat aku lagi* *dalam hati "pergh! lens yang aku cari2!!" drooling~~*
"lens nie khas untuk potrait..bla bla bla"
"a ah, yuni dah pernah pakai lens nie. huuuu"
*iman dah goyang dah time nie*
"ok laa..saya nak p amek wife saya. cindy, u jaga diorg nie elok2 tau?"

"wawa, camna nie...semua yuni nak nie"
"ish..best nie yuni, amek la. camna pun mmg yuni nak gak kan? wawa leh join nie. amek la"
*goyang gile sey*
"kalau semua nie total berapa? takleh kurang lagi"
"isk..banyak mulah ini semua loh. cik lah manyak tau laaa"

bla bla bla~

akhir citer.

aku tangkap Speedlite 430EXII, EF 50mm f/1.8 II, rechargable batery, bag Lowepro, memory card reader. harga? PRICELESS!

dan aku juga berjaya menge-paw blower satu set! yosh!


note for family and friends:
jangan harap korang nak makan nasik minyak aku tahun nie. hahaha!


my day was so happy!
until...
i recieved his offline msg.

Adam (26/05/2009 10:42:16 AM): awak..
Adam (26/05/2009 10:42:52 AM): kamera saya hilang.. hp saya pun hilang..
Adam (26/05/2009 10:42:58 AM): saya sedey sgt..
Adam (26/05/2009 10:43:04 AM): saya tak tahu nk ckp kt sape..
Adam (26/05/2009 10:43:30 AM): orng pecah msuk umah saya

shit! i was so bz this morning.
i knew something bad gonna happen. but this is worst!
he loves his 40d so much. more than anything in this world.
suddenly i feel bad...
i was so happy...on the same thing, 40d
he is sad...and he need someone to talk to.
yet im not there as his friend.

Adam.
im so sorry for your lost...
i called ur sister.
she said u juz went back.
im still waiting for u.
buzz me if you need to talk to me k.



p/s aku sedih sangat...macamana lah adam kat sana kan? he loves them so much.

tip pertama

first impression.
wuuu~ sangat menakutkan.
kalau kantoi, seumur hidup akan direject. tssskkk~


first impression.
kadang2 bongok.
terlampau taksub, boleh jadi fitnah
"indon nie"
haish.
mereka sabahan bah!

first impression.

situation 1
"assalamualaikum mak cik. nama saya polan bin polan. saya nak bawa anak makcik keluar nie. saya akan jaga dia baik-baik"
"anak teruna sapa la nie. bersopan-santun sungguh. abang, jom masuk minang dia" tssskkk!!
(rekaan semata-mata)

malam tu

"abah, dalam banyak2 abah suka yang mana satu?"
"herms...si polan lah. gentleman. berani mai umah mintak nak bawak keluar along hang"
"hahahahahah!! kan dah cakap. abah lagi suka si polan. hampa semua kuar deting semunyik2!"

situation 2
after 5 years since the first meeting

"mak cik, ingat saya lagi tak?"
"erms....yuni kan? yuni kan nie??? dah jumpa adik? along! adik mana? yuni datang nie. yuni dah makan? mana la si adik ni...kawan datang rumah bukannya die nak melayan. jap makcik pergi cari adik" eh...eksaited plak makcik nie
"eh! yuni dah makan, dah jumpe adik tadi. die bz. nie kawan2 yuni. akak ade dalam umah makcik? yuni dah nak balik dah nie, bas yuni kol 2"
"a ah. ade ade. g masuk dulu. amek2 gambo ke."
Husband makcik nie pun lalu.
"Abang! abang! ingat lagi ayuni? kawan adik. die pernah datang tido sini dulu. ingat tak abang?" kata mak cik tadi dengan eksaitednye.

dalam rumah jumpe pengantin.

"bukan main happy lagi mak si polan jumpe ko? siap kecoh satu umah die nak inform ko datang. ko tau tadi siap panggil akak si polan buat sign language ckp ko dtg" inform sudi dengan muka cuak dan teruja melihat layanan family si polan kat aku.
"err...ntah. tapi mak die mmg ok je ngan aku, mak die sporting. abah die aku baru jumpe sekali je."

efek first impression yang positif pada org2 tua.
tuh aku baru potong kacang panjang and basuh pinggan 5 tahun before tuh. tuh belum tengok aku masak, sapu sampah, kemas umah, basuh baju, ampai baju, iron baju...

ape yang aku nak tekankan di sini. 1st impression TERSANGATLAH penting.
tak kisah la dari cara korang berpakaian, percakapan, perlakuan.
1st time jumpa mesti kene PERFECT!
lepas tuh, korang belengas camne pun...kau tetap di hati mereka. cewaaahhh!

Birthday.

OMG OMG OMG!!! aku nak cakap aku sedikit gayat sbb aku baru berlaga bahu dengan Aweera. Yup! Aweera OIAM. dang~~ (ok fine.. aku nampak die dr dlm kete je..)

Officially im 25 years old. *sigh*
my birthday was ok...
im still waiting for another 2 person to wish me..
However!!! i got the most beautiful birthday present ever.
A novel by Cecilia Ahern, The Gift.
tadaaaaa~~~

and today..

i recieved another birthday present that i never expected.
i was at wawa's house when kecik called me.
she told me that i've got a package from Adam, birthday present.
and automatically i cried. (what a fool i am)

Adam shudnt give me anything...he shudnt come back to my life.
He knows that im fighting my ass off just to forget him...
he knows that i cant forget him easily.

I loves the present so much...

That's the real problem..

i txted his sister..

hoping that she is the one whom gv me the gift..

Hoping that if i wear it, it wont reminds me of him...

but it was from Adam..

Adam,

if you read this.

thank you so much for this.

terima kasih sbb ingat birthday saya.

terima kasih sbb still ingat my favourite colour.

i txted you, but u didnt reply me.

that's ok coz, this is what we want.

i just wondering why >.<

be happy ok...

footnote:

i got 2 beautiful presents on my birthday and i like both of it. but i dont know which one i love the most...she said i hv the answer. and you, who's reading this know what my answer is. dont you? im just afraid. afraid of the unknown...

was a loser.

2 buah lagu yang membuatkan aku mampu berlari kembali suatu masa dahulu selepas aku jatuh dan tak mampu untuk berdiri...

boriiinnnggg!!!

statement seorang loser. ahaks~

aku mmg loser dulu. but frankly lagu2 nie lah yang buat aku adalah aku sekarang.

sangat ego.
but
sometimes aku down gak.

that's the reality of life kan?
sayang -> marah -> rindu -> sedih -> ego -> hipokrit -> benci
down. cr kawan nak luah perasaan.
kawan maki seround dua, menangis tiga pat round
bodoh-bongok-bengong-nangis-nangis-nangis-ketawa bagai org gila = W Nurayuni.
cycle ni akan ulang-ulang-ulang.
sedar2 aku dah mampu berlari balik.

hah. kesimpulannye, aku dengar lagu2 nie utk kembali tersenyum! YOSH! berusahalah~~

Wedding Invitation.

bila mula cuti je aku dah tak senang nak duduk.
haish~~
kenapakah?

ye la.
kejap2 wedding invitation sampai.
terasa gile tua sey.
nak2 plak yg nak kawen tu junior.
arrgghhh! mengapa kamu perlu berkahwin?
24?? masih muda. 25 pun muda lagi. (bagi aku)
sbb korang kawen, korang wat aku rasa stress.
kerana korang wat aku rasa aku pun patut kawen kerana aku lagi tua dr korang.
tapi jiwa saya masih muda. tskkkk~ hahahha.

apa2 pun!! mcm aku pernah cakap kat my babes. "are u sure? there's no turning back tau?"
hahaha~

so

Selamat Pengantin Baru to all the newlyweds and future newlyweds!
sorry if i cant attend or wed ok. No hard feeling k. too much weddingSS~

MUAHXS!!

i am sixteen goin on seventeen (^.^)v

yosh!

mari main teka teki.
semakin dekat, semakin cuba nak lari.
ape tuh??

yup.

BiRthDay~~
(7hari lagi...tskkk~)

sudah suku abad hidup.
tapi still tak matang lagi.
tssskkkk~ (*_*)

so ape plan for my birthday?

(1) open table= Seoul Garden please!
(2) chocolate mud cake
(3) body massage
(4) photo hunting all around penang

and

number 5

(*) a watch & shades
or
(*) Canon EF 28-135mm f/3.5-5.6
or
(*) Tamron SP AF 28-75mm F/2.8

[tsssskkkk~ tatau nk pilih yg mana satu]

zap zap zap 2

before
(Alexandra The Lion ekekek~~)

Remember, i said in my previous post dat i wanna cut off my hair. well i didnt cut my hair. aku pergi "tarik" rambut aku. what's "tarik" ??? ok lah. iron rambut.
dem! i hate people yg tarik rambut especially kalau laki. nampak kejung nak mampos. dah la rambut pendek, kalau panjang ok sket
but skang aku plak yang g wat. nape? bukan sbb nak nampak cun, aku mmg sedia ada cun kalau tak tarik rambut pun. kerana....rambut aku dah macam Alex The Lion. kejung pun kejung lah. asalkan aku tak rimas.

3 hari takley basahkan kepala. bayangkan betapa peningnya aku. haish! *beauty is pain*

NOW!! aku still tak suka kalau tarik rambut.why?

1. susah gile nak basuh rambut!
2. susah gile nak keringkan rambut!
3. rimas rambut asyik masuk mata, cucuk-cucuk leher n tinge! arghhhh!!!

sumpah aku tak g wat lagi! Tskkkkkk~

After

tp nampak lagi comey and kemas kan? ngeeeee~ =p

a.n.g.e.l

i read 2 post from my frens.

demmit. i forgot to write a post for my future nephew or niece. taknak! my godson or goddaughter, that's sound better, aye?

when she txted me saying she thinks she's pregnant i was so damn happy! i mean. my bestfren is going to be a mama. and im goin to be umi! yeayyyy~~~

cepatnye masa berlalu. still remember her wed. she was so beautiful in that pink dress.

**********************************************************

To You in sudi's tummy.
this post is dedicated to You.
tho You're not here yet. i know i LOVE you so much.
we'll gonna be a great partner!
all of us waiting for You.
You will be the most amazing and beautiful thing happen to us.
we'll wait for You...
at least i know i will wait for You..
i will always wait for someone i LOVE

hugs and kisses from ur future Umi.
xoxo

kata hati, jangan lepaskan cinta 2

alhamdulillah...
semua dah ok balik. my bfren made a decision. and she choosed the right man. /me crossing her fingers.

sometimes..kita kena lepaskan cinta.
betul.
memang semua tuh sakit. but time will heal it. trust me..

aku sendiri baru lepaskan cinta aku. sangat saket. tapi nak wat camne. mungkin dia lebih perlukan perpisahan ini. aku tak boleh tamak kan? tamak untuk dapatkan someone... tak adil. mmg la kita tau kita sayangkan dia. tapi mampu ke dia sayangkan kita? org cakap we can build the feeling. maybe for me. i can build. but can he? i wont jeopardised it. maybe i shud follow what iman said..find someone who's carzy for you. but..can i be happy?

she is happy now. there's a smile on her face when she with him. im happy for her. for them. for those who's fall in love with the man they want. happy.

kene kuat. kene ego. hidup kene teruskan. lupa ape yang terjadi. jgn ingat. jgn ingat. forget bout everything. about him. and all the memories... *sigh*

RPG

arghhh!! ter-stuck dengan rpg again!
demmit you GreenGoat! hAahahaha

zap zap zap

mari buang masa silam.
mari gunting rambut.
zaaaassss~

kata hati, jangan lepaskan cinta

cinta yang ada dah padam.
jangan ikut kata hati, jangan kasihan pada dia.
pilihan itu sakit. tapi dia boleh hadapi.
betul.
sungguh.
dia boleh hadapi semua tu.
jangan tamak.
cinta dah padam.
jgn ikut hati.
ikut fikiran.
ikut kata kawan.
jangan ikut kata hati.
sbb hati itu buta.


note for myself.
love is still beautiful